Thursday, August 27, 2015

Five Minute Friday: Alone

I'm very excited again this week to join a talented group of women bloggers in an online, unedited flash mob free write. This week, the word-prompt given to us by our fearless leader Kate Motaung (whose wonderful blog can be found at katemotaung.com) is "alone". My timer is set for 5 minutes; ready, set,

Alone. The concept has weighed heavily on my mind and heart for some time now.

As a widow and an empty nester, I spend a vast amount of time alone.

In fact, just the other day, it dawned on me that, except for two periods of only a couple of months each in the past couple of years, I haven't lived alone since I got married 30 years, 11 1/2 months ago!

Now don't get me wrong. I love having some alone time. I don't love being alone most of the time.

And I know that I'm not really alone, that God is always with me, and I appreciate that. I really do.

But I long for the companionship -- on a consistent basis -- of loved ones with whom I share a common history, who I know well and who know me equally well.

I miss the days when the fabric of my life was woven from 4 strands that were diverse, that often went their merry way, but that regularly came together to create a tapestry of love and laughter, of shared joys and sorrows, of inside jokes and gentle teasing, of shared experiences.

 

Oh, how I miss those days.

 

 

8 comments:

  1. I love how you described fmfparty as a flashmob! :) Your words are tender and cherishing. Consistent companionship is essential for a full life, just like being alone at times. Grateful to be writing with you.

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  2. Patti, my heart aches for you. There is such an intrinsic need within each of us for that interweaving of our lives with others. Building shared memories, laughing, crying together . . . especially as women we crave it. I'm praying for you tonight.

    Thanks so much for stopping by my blog tonight!

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  3. Patti I am so sorry you are alone. I cannot imagine losing my spouse and walking through that, but we are at that age. I would invite you if you are lonely and want to join on-line Bible studies that you would find some companionship with women. I joined after I retired a few years ago because for the first time in my life I was a little bored. Now I'm never bored with being at church, in on-line studies, blogging, substitute teaching and now a blessed Nanna.

    Anyway here is a link to join the studies and I'm also sharing another link to request a group. The groups fill up but that's where you meet about 20 ladies who you will grow to love. It's easy. This next study is on the book called "Taming the To-Do List" and that's all you need.

    Well I think instead of providing the link if you are interested let me know.

    Bless you and again so sorry for your loss.

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  4. Christina, I can't take credit for the "flashmob" reference -- I saw that on a few other ladies' blogs and fell in love with it. I agree with you re: the consistent companionship, and someday I hope I find it again. :) Thank you so much for stopping by. :)

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  5. Jeanne, I love, love, love how you express yourself! Your comment (like your blog) is lyrical . . . and insightful. Bless you!

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  6. Debbie, thank you so much for stopping by and for your thoughtfulness. I'm currently in an on-line Bible study but will contact you about the one you refer to. The one I'm currently in is not very active and ends in a few weeks anyway. Thank you, too, for your condolences. Losing my husband at such a young age (he turned 48 a week after his diagnosis) was such a shock -- I simply never imagined we wouldn't grow old together. :(

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  7. Patti - Your words speak directly into my heart. I wish we had met at the retreat because you and I have a lot in common. I understand how you miss the days of being with family day in and day out. Being alone can be good but it also can be difficult. Glad to read your words today.

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  8. Mary, thank you for stopping by and taking the time to post. I feel the same about you as I read your blog -- next year . . . or maybe even before. Who knows -- maybe some of us can arrange regional get-togethers! :)

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