Friday, September 2, 2016

A New Path (Five Minute Friday)

I'm very excited to again this week join a talented group of women bloggers in an online, unedited flash mob free write. Week after week, these women produce insightful and inspiring posts based on a word-prompt given to us by our fearless leader Kate Motaung (whose wonderful blog can be found at katemotaung.com). My timer is set for 5 minutes; let's see where the word "path" takes me.

Confession may be good for the soul, but it's embarrassing for many of us, including myself.

Pride and fear keep me from sharing honestly sometimes, particularly if the sharing is going to make me vulnerable or expose failure on my part. So, I confess, I am often succumb to pride and fear.

But today, I'm shucking off both to share that I have in some ways been on the wrong path for quite some time.

I've spent a large part of my life going my own way, following the path that seemed right to me, that I believed would allow me to have the things I thought I needed, the things I wanted -- usually not for me, but for my loved ones.

Big mistake.

In other areas of my life, I've been on the right path, but along the way I found a really comfortable spot -- a carpet of grass bathed in sunshine, warm but with a gentle breeze, the sound of a nearby gurgling creek, and no bugs or flying insects. And I've stayed put.

Much of that staying-put time, I've been content sharing my comfortable spot with others. When alone, I've reached into my tote and pulled out some beloved time-passers.

And there, in my comfortable spot, I've waited for things to come to me.

Another big mistake.

In recent months -- and certainly more so in recent weeks -- I've become less and less satisfied here in my comfortable spot. I've been looking around me.

I've spent a little time looking at the path behind me, the path that brought me this far, but primarily I've been looking the other direction.

And the more I look, the more I realize that I don't want to stay on the path I'd been traveling. But I don't want to stay in my comfortable spot, either.

I can see the first few yards of a couple of paths. I even hear the voices of different people in my life off in the distance, down each one.

But I can't see where any of those paths go. Not exactly. Beautiful vegetation and a bit of a haze keeps me from seeing very far at all.

That's a bit scary.

Even scarier is that, after those few yards, I can't see the paths themselves. I don't know the terrain of any of them. I don't know what obstacles I'll find along the way. I don't know how each path twists and turns or how many forks I'll encounter that lead me to further choices in path.

That's also scary.

But it's time. It's far past time, in fact, for me to stand up, ignore my grumbling muscles and the "don't go" voices in my head and the fear. It's time for me to follow a new path.

Goodness, but these first steps are hard.

But oh so exciting, too!

11 comments:

  1. To step into the dark is scary. And, to walk a chosen path and find the path disappear is equally scary. Sometimes I flail around and feel out of control but trust that I will stay in my Savior's reach. Carry on in your new decision. Your writing is convincing.

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  2. Trying something new, stepping into a new path.... can be scary. Trust in the Lord and He will guide your paths. :-) Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us.

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  3. Great post, Patti! I've learned that God likes to lead us corner by corner. We can't see around the corner, but He can, and I have to trust Him and just follow His path to the next corner. Then He'll show me what's around it. Thanks for sharing this!

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  4. Thank you for your kind words and for your encouragement, Gabriele, and for stopping by!

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  5. I've been taking breaks this weekend as I work around the house (it's in a huge state of flux after being here only a couple of months and remodeling most of that time), and I've been catching up on 3 blogs -- one of them is yours -- that I discovered through 5MF. I love your writing style and really appreciate your perspective on things. Thank you for stopping by!

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  6. Thank you for visiting, Melissa, and for your encouraging words.

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  7. You are so right about those corners, Crickett! Sometimes I wish I had one of those periscopes they used to sell, along with other "spy" stuff lol, in the back of comic books. The spiritual version. I know, though, that God's plan to only let us see one bit at a time is the best. Thanks for stopping by -- I hope you'll be back. :)

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  8. What a relatable post for me! I know God's calling to something new and a bit out of my comfort zone. Yikes! It is scary to only see a step in front of me but no more. But I 've decided I'm going to trust my guide.After all, He created this road I'm on.

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  9. I enjoyed reading your Five Minute Friday, and I hope to hear how the new path is discovered and ventured. :)

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  10. Beckie, scary and yet exciting! I hope you'll visit again and share with us what it is God is calling you to and how the path unfolds for you.

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  11. So glad you stop by, Katy, and that you take the time to post a comment. :)

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