I've never been one to embrace change. In order to deal with the constant change inherent in normal, day-to-day life, I was for much of my life a bit of a control freak. A type-A personality, if you will.
I'd love to say I finally came to my senses on my own, saw the light, and willingly relinquished the control I thought I had, but we type-A's rarely do that. Instead, buffeted by loss and unavoidable change, I finally relinquished control.
It wasn't easy. It wasn't instanteous. And I wasn't at all gracious about it.
I'm trying to not only be okay with not being in control and with change -- and to even embrace it -- but for me, that's a process that has a steep learning curve. So I'm taking baby steps.
Teeny, tiny baby steps.
I'm taking one of those right now. It's so tiny that I'm almost embarrassed to share it. Heck, if my timer would only cooperate, the 5 minutes would expire without me having to do that. (Drat. I still have almost 2 minutes!)
I'm typing this blog entry on my iPad. And it's a mini!
I, who love my laptop and it's nice big familiar keyboard, am challenging myself in an area in which I'm a notoriously-slow learner (just ask my kids).
I'm tired of toting around my laptop. Even though it's one of the lightest models available, it weighs me down.
I'm tired of stuff -- possessions, my own insecurities and fears, other people's games . . .
I want to throw off the weight, the unnecessary.
I want to be less encumbered by stuff, tangible and intangible.
Free to embrace . . .
Your desires are worthwhile and change is hard for me, too. Why just yesterday I was presented with an opportunity to upgrade my couch for free. The process changed my life just enough that I went crazy, momentarily, in trying to arrange for a truck and then give-away my old couch. My daughter brought me into reality. It's just a couch. No money is being exchanged. Get on with your life. Sigh....
ReplyDeleteOh how I can understand. You're right . . . it's "just" a couch or using an iPad or whatever, but at the moment it's all we can see perhaps, and when it's all we can see, it's just so big and important. Thank goodness for people like your daughter who can help us gain perspective. Thanks for visiting and for sharing -- it's nice to know I'm not alone. :)
ReplyDelete:) I know how you feel, Patti! I. don't. like. change. But, I know if I don't embrace it, I will miss out on so much that God has in store for me.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right!
DeleteYES! I'm right there with you on all of it!
ReplyDeleteThank you for stopping by; I hope you'll share your thoughts and ideas often. It's great to hear from someone in the same situation. :)
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