Thursday, June 1, 2017

Future (Five Minute Friday)

I'm very excited to again this week join a talented group of women who connect each Friday in an online, unedited flash mob free write based on a one-word prompt from our fearless leader Kate Motaung. My timer is set for 5 minutes; let's see where the word "future" takes me.



It's ironic, really.

When I was much younger -- my teens and 20's -- I had the bulk of my future ahead of me. In retrospect, though, I realize I really didn't give much thought to it.

Oh, I considered what I wanted to do career-wise and who I wanted to marry and how many children I hoped to have (a bare minimum of 5). But think -- at any length and in any depth -- about the future? Not really.

Now, with my future much shorter, thoughts of it are never far away.

See the irony? Have much, think little; have little, think much. Sounds like a book title.


So what aspects of it -- the future -- occupy my mind most often?

Not unnaturally, given that my kids have been the main (earthly) focus for over 30 years, I think often of my relationship with them, their relationship with each other, and how that will play out as I age and even after I'm gone. Just a few years ago, I don't think I would have given this much thought. Our relationship was a constant, and I was happy that they were close, that they had each other and would have each other once I -- their last living parent -- was no longer with them. 

But things change. Dynamics change. Oh, we're still close, but not in the sense that we once were. And so, I think about that.

I also think about my financial future. I was able to  resign my job and will be teaching elsewhere this Fall; I'm so excited about the new opportunity, but not so excited at the 22% pay cut I'm taking. 

Since my husband passed away, and even more so as I change jobs, I seriously think about where I'll live in the immediate future and beyond. I'd love to sell my small home and go even smaller, and I often play around with how I can make that happen.

My future health also occupies my thoughts. I want to be one of those ladies in videos posted on Facebook who are 80+ years old and hiking and whitewater rafting and working out in the gym (well, I don't want to have to do that, but I'd like to be able to do that) in the best shape of their lives.

I hope and pray that the decisions I make now lead me to a future that is physically, emotionally, socially, and mentally healthy and vibrant. 

And that 



8 comments:

  1. Patti, this is such a triumphantly brave essay! I'm positive you inspired a LOT of people this evening. You sure inspired me.

    #1 at FMF this week.

    http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2017/06/your-dying-spouse-318-pain-glory-and.html

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  2. Beautiful Patti! You know at one time I was glad to be single, but now... I know it's one of those things you must do and don't want to do but Andrew's right...you inspire!

    I want to be the old lady that dances and doesn't care if anyone is watching.
    I'm behind you this week at FMF.

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  3. i understand what you are talking about in your post patti. i discussed some of it in mine today as well. (51) you are just at a different stage of life than i am.

    i'm excited for the new job you have and the opportunity you will have to do more writing...and maybe a few more other things you enjoy:) blessings!

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  4. Thank you for your candid writing, Patti, about things we all face in one way or another. Matthew 6:25-34 is a stabilizer for my thoughts, a silencer of my worries. Blessings. -Alice from #61 at FMF.

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  5. What an inspiring post, Patti. I, too, want to me an energetic, cheerful, bubbly 80/90 year old. Best wishes as you begin your new job and find the perfect home for this time in your life's journey.

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  6. Thank you for leading us more into your story. Different seasons pose different questions about the future. Praying for you as you transition into your new teaching opportunity!

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  7. Beautiful thoughts Patti. Our plans do change don't they with all that life brings us. So sorry you have lost your husband. Can't imagine that. Funny how as we get older how our thoughts change.

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  8. I am praying your dreaming for the future turns into God's plan for you. It's great to see you here and to read your words. Blessings!

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