Tuesday, June 29, 2021

Fish or Cut Bait

 I can't say for sure when I first decided I wanted to write a book. All I know is that I wrote one in 5th grade. 

I don't remember what it was about. And sometime between the end of 5th grade, when my teacher gave it to my parents and told them (according to my mother) that it "showed promise" and 15 years later (when I dug through the huge box of my school papers she'd collected over the years), it had disappeared. 

For the next 38 years, I talked sporadically about writing a book. But a lack of self-confidence, time, knowledge of the business of writing a book and getting it published were hurdles I didn't know even the first step of overcoming. 

And I was so busy! Once I graduated from college and began teaching, I spent most of my free time attending my students' extracurricular events, grading papers, and preparing for class. I got married, and although I took a break from teaching, I was even busier. Raising children, moving more than a few times (my husband was in the Air Force), attending my own children's activities, and the general busy-ness of life consumed my time, thoughts, and energy. I returned to college to earn a Masters and returned to teaching. It seemed every hour -- every minute -- of every day was consumed by something that had to be done. 

But the dream of writing a book never faded. In fact, it grew stronger.

By the time my youngest child left for college, I was an adjunct college instructor and had time to write.  I'd begun doing some freelance writing of articles for special interest publications my local daily newspaper published monthly. For the first time in my life, I was writing for something other than a class I was taking or a classes I was teaching, and I was ecstatic. It seemed as if, just maybe, I was on the path to seeing if I could make my dream come true.

And then my entire life trajectory changed with the death of my husband. Grieving, returning to teaching full-time, moving, and just getting through each day consumed everything I had.

And before I knew it, 38 years had passed.

I've attended writing conferences (3, in fact). I know how hard it is to become a published author. It's a daunting task. Heck, it's beyond daunting! And if you factor in my age . . . well, let's just say that the odds of my ever becoming a published author would preclude almost any reasonable person from putting any money on it happening.

Yet the dream persists. 

And I've come to a point in my life where it's time to decide. Do I finally pursue it?

Or do I put it to rest and stop writing, stop doing the few but time-consuming tasks I perform daily to be prepared in the event that I ever write a book?

I'm tired of dithering over this, so I've decided it's time to either "fish or cut bait", as my grandpa would say. I'm going to pray diligently for clear direction (and your prayers are appreciated as well, and I've set a "decision deadline" of July 26.

T-minus 27 days . . . 


  1. I'll be praying God's will and guidance ma'am. Your voice is too important to not be heard.

    1. J.D., your prayers are so very appreciated, as are your kind words. I am so grateful and humbled by both.

  2. I would encourage you to write. Your experience coupled with God’s Word will result in the one individual God wants fed through you. And perhaps the world!

    1. Thank you so much, Warren, for those words of encouragement and support. Bless you!!

    2. Thank you so much, Warren, for those words of encouragement and support. Bless you!!

  3. I pray God gives you wisdom. It’s so hard to persist when quitting would be so much easier. Think of all the time and money saved! Yet God gives us dreams for a reason and a dream we haven’t forgotten is a dream to pay attention to. Only you can decide. I pray your path ahead is clear and you can move forward with confidence. I don’t know what kind of book you want to write, but I really enjoyed reading your travel updates. Perhaps a travel book of short stories recounting your trips and experiences? Or a novel with a main character who decides to travel on her own?

  4. Praying for God to give you wisdom, discernment, and revelation. :-)

  5. Praying for God to give you clear direction. Based on this beautifully expressed blog, I would encourage you to write!

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